Flags at half-mast in Moscow this week

Captured by shitty phone camera, but captured nonetheless. This one is over the Prosecutor General’s Office.

I had quite a moment after taking this picture. I was walking with a friend and telling him a bunch of crap. “Life is so banal, I’m going to go drown myself in the Moscow River.” “But that would be banal as well!” Etc.

We parted ways by the metro, and I kept on walking home, right through the Red Square. It was the day after the metro bombings, the weather was good, but Red Square was comparatively quiet. My boots pounded the cobblestone, my back was killing me. A gaggle of children in matching outfits – the backs of their jackets said “Minsk” – briefly streamed all around me, giggling, darting back and forth like a school of fish. I was jealous of them.

My iPod was on random, and as I paused by the Mausoleum, Yann Tiersen’s “Summer 78” from the soundtrack to “Good Bye Lenin” started up suddenly.

And I thought, “Everything will be OK – and me along with it.”

Nick Cave can sing it better than I can ever say it:

Come loose your dogs upon me
And let your hair hang down
You are a little mystery to me
Every time you come around

We talk about it all night long
We define our moral ground
But when I crawl into your arms
Everything comes tumbling down

And so it goes between us.

Monday music: beautiful Moscow

Утром – Смысловые Галлюцинации
Field Below – Regina Spektor
Stop Talking – Memory Tapes
Shine On Brightly – Procol Harum
Twilight – Antony & the Johnsons
All I Want is You – U2
Promises – Badly Drawn Boy
Meadowlarks – Fleet Foxes
Steep – the Acorn
Eet – Regina Spektor

I’m going away this week. But I think I’ll be back. Life is so far up in the air right now, that I can’t see the ground. Stars, though, I can see.

…A treasure just to look upon it. Etc.

Me on today’s explosions in the Moscow Metro

We’re not terrorized.

No. Really. I’ll need a drink later tonight – I would have gone through Lubyanka this morning if I had woken up on time (I need a set of keys made – and due to the complicated lock construction, I would have had to travel north, and always take the Sokolnicheskaya line when I do that, because I love Sokolnicheskaya and I love Lubyanka). But I refuse to freak out. Freaking out is giving them exactly what they want.

Fuck you, bastards.